I have been so stressed out lately.
School has been ok. Chemistry is actually going well and has been really interesting. But math is another story. I understand math, but my professor has done things so backwards that I don't know which direction we are headed. I failed my first test and have failed the homework. Instead of turning homework in, she'll give random quizes of 3 or 4 problems, and take that grade for our homework. I wish we would just be graded on our homework and then have the oppertunity to actually hand in our work. I'm so frustrated.
One of the other things that I'm stressed about is my dad. Naturally i'm going to be stressed about him, but I was misled with information. I was under the impression that his cancer was stage 2 or 3. But in going to lunch with my sister last saturday, I found out that it is actually stage 4, which means its on his vital organs which is not a good sign. I am so worried that I'm going to loose my dad. I think about it everday, and I'm not sure I can handle someone I love die a slow death. I know I don't have a choice, and it's totally out of my control, and eventually I am going to have to face it head on, but I don't want to. I'm worried.
Last tuesday, I had an eye appointment. I thought my perscription was changing in my eyes. So I made an appointment with the occular doctor whom I've never seen before. What an experience. He was in such a rush! He barely took the time to introduce himself to me and then continued to tell me how busy he was......Not a good impression. So he takes a look at my eyes and tells me my perscription has barely changed at all. As I'm getting the fierce glare in my eyeball from his light, he stops in my right eye, cirles my eye all over again and says, hmmm. Then procedes to do the same thing in my left eye. WHAT? WHAT IS GOING ON? And then says " Has any one told you, you have mild cataracts?" UUUGGGHHHHHH NO! No one has ever said that to me... I have mild cataracts? REALLY? And then goes on to ask me if I've ever taken steriods. Ok I know I'm a big girl but you really think I took steriods? My response naturally is NO!!! What the hell is going on? So I asked what I can do. NOTHING. I'm going to have to wait till it gets progressively worse and then surgery. AWESOME. The gods must hate me right now. I'm so over this. I don't know how much more I can take..... Really. Any adise anyone? HELP!
